By Josephine Lim-Weston
Recently I experienced a loss of something precious. As a result I began to question and having doubts of all I've believed to the point I do not know what to believe anymore. I was left speechless. Although I received words of encouragement and heard good sermons they only lasted that moment - a surge in faith and afterwards it subsided and I felt sad once more thinking what had happened.
I finally realised I've been "trying to be". I've been trying to recover from the loss, I've been trying to draw close to God even though I still struggle with doubts, I've been trying to stay strong and not be sad, I've been trying to say to myself everything will be alright and it will all be over and forgotten with and God will restore to me what I've lost. I've been trying to come to terms with what had happened, I've been trying and keep trying to do everything I think I should be doing, I should be feeling, thinking and believe in.
I've been trying and as a result being hard on myself that I realised I should have "just be". The Lord said to me I've been hearing lots of voices from people and myself included and trying to justify all that happened but instead I should "just be" and stop trying to be. I should just rest my thoughts and my heart and fall into the embrace of Jesus and find comfort there. I shouldn't try to rationalise and find reasons to my loss instead should just surrender what is not in my control to my Saviour. He's truly everything I need.
I might not understand right now why I have to go through this pain, but all I know is I can find comfort in the embrace of my Saviour as I imagine myself wrapped up in His arms of comfort and love where I find my peace and strength to carry me through every season in life.
No Longer will I try to justify but Just Be in the arms of my Saviour. When we can't, when things seem no longer under our control, it's time to surrender and fall into His arms of love and grace. Hope rises and I'm now receiving His love all over again and grace to face the future.
Matthew 11:28
Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.
Beautiful song to accompany this blog article:
Through it all
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=33aGaYAZvL4
